Understanding religious experiences or thoughts when psychotic, please help?

You sound like you want to be religious, but are struggling to much with your psychosis to be so. As a Christian, I know that God won't punish you for your actions now if you come to Him with a sorry heart and ask for forgiveness. Also, He didn't punish you because you stopped fasting. God wants the very best for His children and He created food so you would eat it. Over eating, as in eating every second of the day, is gluttony which is bad. But people in the Old and New Testaments ate, the Disciples, even Jesus. He created enough food for the people. God won't punish you. Take some time to find what you truly believe, study the Bible, and worship God all the time. He loves you.