Please read..Need marriage advice?

My husband and I have been married for 11 years. There are good days, although the bad out number the good. We are two total different people, in many ways. I prefer talking about problems instead of yelling, like he does. He cusses all of the time, which I find disrespectful. Speaking of disrespect, he was yelling and cussing at me today, in a store. Im not perfect, I know that, but I try and show him love and that, well that's something he rarely ever shows me. I would be writing a book if I went into everything that's happened, but lets just say that many times Im scared to be in my own home, when hes upset, and Im also scared to leave because I fear he'll be cruel to my dogs. I have put up with it for years. I asked myself tonight..Do I still love him? I came up with the answer that I think I do, at the same time I despise him for everything he's done, all the pain he's put me through. My friends say to me, Jen, why do you stay? You deserve better. I guess my only answer is, Im afraid of being alone, hes basically all I have. My mom is passed and my dad in a nursing home, no siblings. Btw, when I say friends I mean my FB friends, many of whom I went to high school with and haven't seen in years, and whom live in another state, here, I have no friends. Ive been a housewife for the 11 years we have been married, so that's another concern. I have a back problem and social anxiety disorder which makes getting a job hard. Ive just spilled my heart out to complete strangers, I guess just hoping for some advice that might help..Thank you for your time<3